out of curiousity, i visited jpa website to check on scholarships for futher studies...well,first of all, i didn't get hlp for next year..therefore, have to find some other avenue as backup plan for next year if i didn't get hlp again...after went through all the informations, i think i need to do something about my level of knowledge and languages before i can think of applying for these scholarships outside hlp. i'm not saying i look down on myself, but it's just that i know myself better...i have good enough self confidence, but i just know my level of knowledge is not up to the level for me to compete with international candidates..language is a problem as well..after years of working in the service, i have lost command of my english language..damn it..the problem didn't lies with the service but more to personal reason. i take for granted we don't need much english in the service, therefore totally don't care to polish my command of the beautiful language..therefore, i will have less than one year to polish my english again before i can think of doing anything else...at times, we really need alot of supports and encouragement by our loved ones in order to motivate ourselves to go further..
for the last six years, i think i have accomplished several important things in my family and my own life, and now it's time for me to have a new target in life to push myself further..i fell that i have been stagnant for the last two years since i transferred to this division.. i learn new things of course, but the demands of the bosses and their restrictions doesn't allows me to do much changes in my working enviroment...so, i come to one solutions. i will give myself until june next year to improve my level of knowledge and polish up my english and then go for good competition to get a scholarship to do my master..only through knowledge will i be able to move forward...and, i don't want to look back at the past on my sickbed, thinking weather my life could be better if i have done certain other things...
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me clicks "like". me too, i think i hav not been learning much since the first day i came into service. why so pathetic!!
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